whitetwoguns | But I ain't no madman.

I heard when you had said it the first time. I just...didn't process it.

[All he could focus on was other people. What he was asking. Focusing on himself and then spilling worry all over the damn kid.]

The rough stuff with em makes me nervous.

[Anxious. With a response like that Larry you're going to have to talk far more.]

I get to thinking about bullshit from back then.

[Far more is not this, Dimmy. He's kinda stuck.]

[Dab dab and wipe wipe to his own mouth. These green eyes are still staring at you quite wildly, Lawrence Dimick.]

Which rough stuff?

[Sorry man but the kid has to ask. Immediately he already has an idea of what 'back then' implies, no need to go into details for that particular aspect. He won't even address it if Larry doesn't want to talk about it.]

Tell me what you don't wanna do, don't wanna see. [He insists, because Orange has some preferences too, though not for the same reasons.]

[Brown eyes look right on back below his furrowed brow. Is that funny? Or...is that surprising?]

Like...hitting or pushing up against a wall. If they're a [he was going to say little guy too, he changes it to] smaller guy, maybe it won't be so bad. I don't think I could take action in the shower.

[Being honest. He frowns at his own inability to exactly articulate how this makes him feel. Constant submerging nearly leaves him at a loss. Here's the perfect opportunity.]

I know it'll be different though, if I'm there.

We don't have to take anything to any shower. [Freddy says like he's laying down the law on Larry's behalf without further question.] Look I don't want you thinking I'm a freak or something...

[He adds just in case he hasn't been clear that he's not a fiend for this kind of thing. Freddy can bite off more than he can chew too. Remember that one guy who made it hard to do much of anything for a week? Yeah, some things aren't worth it. Conjuring upsetting memories for Lawrence Dimick certainly isn't in this case.]

You'll be there. [He repeats Larry's words.] Callin' shots.

Baby, I don't. [If anything the old man feels like a freak. Here he is again putting up boundaries when maybe they won't be involved with anybody that might get him on edge.] Just feel like I should say something now.

[Rather than later. Rather than holing up bullshit until he bursts.]

Only for the best of us, man. Ain't nobody gonna be treating you bad.

[Used isn't the same as bad. Used can be good. The old man can speak for that.]

Alright, alright. [He says in neither a placating manner nor an impatient one. It's just the way Freddy is.] What else do you wanna say? I wanna know and you don't have to be scared to share it with the class. It's a small one.

[He gestures to the rest of the apartment, about as big as Larry's master bedroom.]

[Being Freddy Newendyke, doing what he can to coax on out tine details. Getting all the flies and bears with honey is a crafty strategy.]

Well.

[He rotates the bottle of beer in his hand.]

I dunno if I want anybody but you fucking me. At least not at first.

[......Heh. Heh heh heh. Sorry, Mr. White, the floodgates are starting to open. At least Freddy keeps his prideful victorious laughter to himself.]

That's okay, if you're not comfortable with it we don't gotta do it. When you say fucking you mean up your ass right? You don't want anybody else up your ass but me?

[Good. His ego would be so compact the kid could fit it in his pocket if he were to bust a rib laughing.]

Yeah. That's what I mean.

[Drink that alcohol right on down.]

I'm gonna be sometime. Someday.

[Not today. Not tomorrow. Hell, Freddy's got no bones on it. Larry hopes that he never feels like he needs to be so damn guarded. While it does bring them closer together, it's no way to stay in the old man's mind.]

It don't gotta be today or tomorrow.

[Hell the kid would be okay with never only because it makes him feel special. At the same time he likes to believe this position doesn't affect how he feels about Freddy who happens to love getting it as much as giving it. He's not less of a man in Larry's eyes for it, is he? Freddy polishes off more of his beer too.]

What else?

[Even though this conversation got off to a rocky awkward start the feeling Orange has right now is warm and relieved. They're talking and not splitting hairs.]

Okay. [That's more than encouraging. Larry reaches out to put a hand on Freddy's knee and squeeze. That really means so much to the old man. The kid gets it.

What else? Huh.]

Would you ever wanna try it with a lady?

[One chick, two dicks. It's just a question.]

[All that paw patting makes him feel so good, good enough to put his beer down and start crawling into Larry's lap--er.]

..........

[Well, Freddy's still in his lap that's for sure, but instead of brushing his roman nose against the old man he's kind of sort of looking at him.]

You act like I ain't fucked a chick before. [Joking, joking.] Only if it makes you tick, no sweet stuff though, I'm not gonna lay her down on a bed of roses.

[One hand for Freddy to go on about his waist and the other for his booze. Oh. Oh.]

It's not gonna be like just fucking some woman, it'd be you and me fucking and then some woman.

[Which...from the sound of it, is not at all appealing to Freddy.]

I'm not hung up on it. No sweet stuff.

[Now that they're so close he'll plant a kiss on his mouth.]

[Now that's a comfortable seat. Freddy shifts a little more to settle in against Larry. Fuck anybody who thinks doing this means he's lacking balls. He'll put their face right on'em and tell them to suck one by one. Is that what Larry likes seeing?]

I'd be fucking you using a woman.

[Freddy clarifies or rationalizes, whichever makes the most sense. Ah that's better, he purses his lips to meet Larry's mouth.]

[Any motherfucker who says bullshit like that don't know what it's like. And even if they did, chances are they wouldn't be as well off as Mr. Orange is whenever he is on Mr. White's lap. There are two sets of balls to suck right there. It would be a pretty good sight to see.]

Uh huh. Sure would.

[Larry holds onto Freddy while he leans to put his beer down.]

What about me, guy? What kinda stuff should I know?

[His lips move and they're so close to the other's that it is almost another kiss.]

[Being close like this it's practically mandatory he makes it another kiss. Mouth to mouth followed by a lick, then the kid is leaning back just enough to look at those brown eyes when he's speaking.]

I think you need to know...I don't care how many times you can cum. [Another kiss.] As long as you cum real hard.

[Whoops maybe that's the wrong thing to say when you're trying to steer a semi-serious and important conversation.] You're great the way you are. That's all. [Yeah you salvage that beast, Newendyke.]

[That is one line that can be fed so frequently to so many people except the way the kid puts it out there for the old man, it's something he can latch onto.]

That's it, cowboy? Really?

[Being a picky one about what kind of a racial background the third (or fourth) wheel will be, wanting to have his ass monopolized by Freddy and being able to fire off one hard round...and he still is considered great.]

How often you wanna have some extra cocks around?

[Another shrug. A cowboy sheriff shrug.] I guess so, yeah.

[They've already established he wants to have the option of fucking extra cocks. How often though? That's an interesting question. Freddy rubs his chin thoughtfully.]

I don't know, I don't think about it like that. If I see a...a guy... [Because you're gay, Newendyke, not just whitesexual.] And he looks like he might be fun...

[Now he has to nudge the old man in the chest.] I don't have a quota, damn.

If you think of something, this isn't a set in stone thing. You can tell me.

[With the hopes that the same would go to him. While Freddy is rubbing his chin the old man will go and rest his head on is shoulder. The better to listen to him talk.]

Just a question. I wasn't sure if you wanted to try once a week whenever it would be that week or go with the flow.

[Sounds like go with the flow to ride with the tide. Man, weeks ago this sort of a talk was not possible. They tried. They really did.]

I know you like making lists and charting schedules and shit but I can't time it.

[He's making fun at Larry's expense, harmless honestly. Another nudge goes right to the center.] You'll know when it's up.

[Does Freddy have to explain what 'it' is?]

Are we gonna develop codes? Or you can put up a bat signal?

[Fun poking for fun poking. And here, kid he'll kiss you on the neck in your dingy motel hideout.]

How about I tell you 'I feel like extra cock. That one.'

[He pantomimes whispering to the old man in a bar setting, head tilted to capture Larry in the crook of his neck. There something else Freddy hasn't said, something they haven't explicitly addressed, but maybe they don't need to if they're both in it to give this another chance.]

I can keep my ears open for that. Yeah.

[There he'll stay. God he missed the smell of him. Cigarettes, sweat, the whole thing. How did it get so messed up so fast? The better question is how do they prevent themselves from going that way again. He sighs.]

What would you say to me right now, huh? Since it's just us?

[Anything he wants. That's what. Man, they're still in this motel. And Freddy still has things here. Does this mean that they gotta start from ground zero or slowly move on in?]

Cool.

[Says the kid. It's no different from 'good' or 'that's a great idea' in Freddy terms. He drapes a wiry arm around the old man's shoulders. What would he say to Mr. White indeed. Freddy thinks about it for a quiet moment, tongue slipping out only to wet his lips in thought. He could tell him he trusts Larry to curb the things that led to what happened last year and in return Freddy would do the same. He could tell him he'd like to move back in as soon as possible.]

Thanks. For not giving up. [On me, on us. He doesn't clarify, not finding a need to.] I wanna move back in.

[But not without at least one good fuck in this place. It'd be proof no matter what happens somehow they find each other back together everywhere, a temporary studio is no exception.]

As bad as I felt, I wasn't going to.

[He felt down. He felt out. They kept on talking somehow though. Those last words are really what brings it all home. With Freddy on him now he is already back to occupying his mouth and starting to make work on his shirt.]

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